Being a silence breaker can be the hardest thing to do with your voice! Many would have you remain silent for their comfort and God would have you speak to serve His will.
Like my husband's sweet dog Feathers who is trapped in her crate by the terrible terror kittens she need only use her voice to be freed. If she would bark or growl those kittens would puff up and scatter! If she would get out of the crate she could come to me, where I would protect her. But her house is her comfort zone and she is loathe to leave it. And they think they have her trapped.
And the door is open! They are kittens.
Certainly their Mama is a force to be reckoned with, but them? Hissing hair balls!
Sitting on my lawn, holding a sign saying I will be Silence Breaker seems rather funny, no? But our voice can be heard when we don't speak a single word. Our courage can be in showing up. In doing God's will. By serving. Through gentle hands. Being scared to death and doing it anyway.
Fear is a beast we all struggle with. Sometimes it is a wee kitten - a hissing hair ball. Sometimes it is a red light and siren screaming DANGER DANGER DANGER
The thing with fear is that it isn't all bad all the time! Sometimes we need fear - it gives us a jolt of adrenaline to get us going to get away from danger. Sometimes we need fear - it can tell us when our courage is needed. Sometimes fear is an old memory. A shadow.
I'm a bit of a prepper. I try to be ready for things. Most of the things I fear the most have NEVER come to pass. And those that do ended up being bigger blessings than I could have imagined.
Oh my heart trembles in my chest like a terrified bird. Oh my soul feels small and distant from my Lord. Oh my courage sinks into a puddle of fear. Oh my knees lower me down. And then when all seems utterly confusing and full of fear I'm in the right place to pray. To listen. To let Him soothe my soul. To lift my spirit. To strengthen my resolve.
The hardest thing about finding your voice isn't knowing when to use it, it is accepting that some would prefer you remain silent. And with love and grace, letting them go. My husband taught me something wise a long time ago, the people who you fear the most, the ones who keep you up at night are probably not up at night thinking about you. Pray for them, give them back to God and move on. Simple to say. Simple to type. So VERY hard to actually do!
What do I fear the most? That woman I see in the mirror every morning. I fear her weakness will let those who count on me down. That her sharp tongue will cut. Her empathy will fail. That she will utterly and completely drop the proverbial ball.
Who was the hardest person to learn to love? Me. Imperfect woman. Working on respect and submission wife. Working on patience Mama. Working on more faith, more gratitude and less worry. But I do love her. She is amazing. God has wrought something special in her.
Silence breaker! Sister warrior. Princess, daughter of the King. We are attacked by the dark designs of a fallen angel because he fears our voices! He fears our prayers. He fears our love. The more he designs traps to discourage us, to distract us, to disturb us the more he thinks he is winning. Dear ones, God loves your voice! He made it, tuned it through life like a fine instrument. He wants to hear it. So do we! Share with us on the link up, won't you? Be blessed by reading other blogs and please leave some love. Everyone needs to know that their voice is heard. You may not know how encouraging your one comment may be to someone who is writing her heart into the open! Be the blessing!